- first of all, sorry about my really wrong grammar, I really try to do my best, but I hope its still readable.
I will take a break on dA. I will Never stop being on dA, so don't worry. I don't know for how long, but I need to find myself in art again. I need to find the joy in making art again, I mean, I still love drawing, but with school, real life - friends, family, music, and other things I love to do, drawing has just end up being stressful with all the art I whould like to draw, and the arts people have ordered - point comissions and stuff. It all takes time, and with my 14 years, Im a teenager, and with school, I will soon be in 9th grade on a Danish school - which means tests, studying, and concentrating - which I will like doing better than last school year . That is one of the reasons. the other thing is, that I have never actually observed and studying animals real anatomy and stuff like that. And yes, its one of the things I need to be better to, but everytime I finally sitting down with my drawing tablet (or just traditional pen) I feel so unconcentrated because of the fact that there is soo many things I like to draw, and need to draw (point comissions and stuff), and I just feel like Im loosing time, and wasting time doing not finished, and unconcentrated arts where Im not giving my full love to each art. I need to find the love in art again- sounds so poetic. And I have like drawn for... I don't know, since I was 9 years old or something (I mean where I really started). Yes I have developed my skills a lot, but I whould really like to observe wolves and other animals from the bottom, with photo references and stuff like that - instead of just seeing and find inspiration from other animal-artists. which has been really stupid, but the past is the past. Another thing is that, I have discovered that Im putting to high expectations to myself about the arts I do, because on dA there is so many really great great artists - literally, there really can draw the most detailed, real-looking, beautiful arts. And I am not saying that I am not a great artist, or bad at drawing, but as soon as Im seeing a finished art I have done myself, I see an art from a really great artist, and I feel like - I chould have done better, and this is nothing. But if one of my friends (there don't use deviantart, or drawing themself) they say that I am really good and stuff like that. And as I said Im putting too high expectations to myself and my skills. - as I said its really hard not to find a bit to much inspiration, or looking a lot on other artists arts, instead of making up your own style - Im not saying that I dont have my own style, Im not saying that Im stealing, but ALL artists find inspirations from other artists I am sure of, but I will just find my art - style, and my own techniques - from the bottom.
So what am I going to do. As said I want to start from the bottom, which means I will study animals, and I will make a lot of unfinished sketches, and stuff like that. As soon as I get my scanner fixed I will upload some of my sketches, but thats all I think. No, Whenever I got time and feel like doing it, I will finish the point-comissions. The fact is that I always first wants the points after I finished a pointcomissions, so no one can get sad about this news, nothing is lost yet, but I promise to those who have ordered point comissions or any else kind of art I will make them finish, just me patience.. a lot. Anyway, I think when first you are good at the traditional art - you can only be better in photoshop. I need to practice my traditional drawing technique anyway. I really hope that when I get back (like really back) I will be a more developed and happy artist! (and probably stop making point.comissions for a while, it actually takes a lot of the time). But I will never stop on dA, just to be sure that everyone got da't fact!
I really really really hope that all of my watchers will stay my watchers and stay updated, I love you all, I am here, and I am here to stay.